Sunflower State of Mind

November 23, 2015

Weekending & Other Fun Things

Monday...already?? The weekend flew by--but the good ones usually do!
I've got a whole bunch of randomness to share today, starting with our weekend in the Little Apple.  

It was a cold Saturday in Manhattan, but we bundled up and ventured out to the game. I was happy to have Nash (aka Randy) to keep me warm...but toting that little butterball around is a serious workout!

The kids and I headed out at halftime because a. it was freezing, b. it was nap time, and c. things weren't looking good for the wildcats. But lucky for us, we got to see this sweet face before we left! I just adore Desiree and I'm so glad her Iowa and Kansas roots bring her back this way from time to time! 

And can we just talk about Nash in that picture? Clearly he was over that game ;)
Little did he know that the cats would miraculously come back to win it and score 10 points in the last 80 seconds of the game. Totally crazy but we'll take it!

The rest of the day consisted of shenanigans back at Grandma and Grandpa's condo. I'm so thankful for their new place because it allows us to make these fun memories with the whole one of our favorite places ever. 

Later that night Chris and I headed out for an anniversary dinner and drinks with some very good friends that were in town from Houston. We laughed a lot and just had the best time. However, things got weird when we realized that we'd given each other the same anniversary card ;)

The inside says "you're welcome" I guess who's responsible is still up for debate ;)

Our Sunday consisted of driving home to KC, going to a fun little 2nd birthday party, and hanging our Christmas lights. Some guys in our neighborhood went in together and rented a man lift to get the job done. I think it was really just a ploy to hang out together and drink beer--but it got the job done quickly (and well!) and the kids loved watching out the window as Chris floated by with lights in hand.

When I was laying Nash down later that evening I heard Christmas music playing outside. I snuck out of his room and ran down to see a bunch of our neighborhood friends caroling in our driveway! We weren't able to make the rounds with them, but they stopped by to see our "house lighting" anyway. This is a pretty good place that we live :)

Now...on to the other fun things!

First, a big congratulations to Dawn Schmidt! Dawn is the random winner of the Pink Antlers Studio holiday banner. I hope it helps to make your holiday season a little merrier and brighter :) Thanks Morgan for making it all possible!

Last but not least, I'm so so honored to be featured by Shiny Happy Human in their #BeautifullyMessyMom campaign, launching today.

"A #BeautifullyMessyMommy recognizes she is human, forgives herself for not being perfect and teaches her daughter self-love by example" 

Don't you just love that? You can hop over here and read about what it means to me personally. 

Wishing you all a great start to your week!!!

November 20, 2015

Friday, Friday!

Happy Friday, friends :) First of all, I just want to say thank you so much to all of you for the prayers and kind words after my post on Wednesday. It was hard for me to put that out there, but writing is healing for me--and sharing was too.



Happy 6th anniversary to this studly guy! A lot has happened in 6 years--1 dog, 2 kids, 3 homes, happy times, sad times, and everything in between. All I know is there's no one else I'd rather be doing this life with. Also, when I get into bed at night he lets me put my ice cold feet on his to warm up...I think he must really love me too :)


Oh LuLaRoe, you are my newest obsession. I went a little crazy on baseball tees and leggings at the party I hosted this week--but I can't say I'm sorry about it. I feel like I'm fooling the whole world by wearing clothes that feel like pajamas...but look so cute too. 

Now two things before you laugh at my mirror selfie skillz (or lack thereof). 1. I still don't know what I'm supposed to do with my face in these. #awkward  2. Someone tell Chris to clean his side of the closet. #embarrassing

A few of you have asked if there's a way to shop LuLaRoe online. My cousin Lindsey, who hosted my party, is now also selling via her facebook page. Keep in mind that all of their pieces are unique, so you probably won't see these exact patterns on there, but there are so many darling prints to choose from!


I'm in L-O-V-E with the free Christmas printable from Craftberry Bush. Go and get one for yourself here


Dear Santa, I'd like one of these in my stocking. K, thanks :)


Speaking of would you like to win one of these pretties to hang right next to your stockings?! Head on over here to enter to win a Pink Antlers Studio "Merry & Bright" banner. The giveaway ends tonight at midnight and the winner will be announced Monday!

Cheers to a great weekend!



November 18, 2015

Learning to Grieve

"Our journey through grief - through the valley of the shadow of death - is slow, laborious footwork.  We put one foot in front of the other, one step at a time.  It is a process that cannot be sidestepped or hurried.  The destination is God's peace."

I read this quote every morning when I'm making breakfast for the kids. It's on a bulletin board above my desk, right next to a strip of photobooth pics of my brother and me. The pictures were taken at my wedding reception 6 years ago. Josh and I had been talking for a long time and I remember thinking that I should probably go and mingle with other guests (after all, I could talk to my brother any day)...but I didn't want to leave because it felt like one of those special moments--one that I would always remember. 

Some days I'm so mad. I admit it, I'm angry with God a lot. Almost 8 months after losing Josh, I still can't figure out why it happened. Why him? Why then? He was a father, a husband, a son, a brother. Why take him? I'm desperate for answers...explanations...understanding. 

Some days I'm just plain sad. Even the happiest times--birthdays, holidays, celebrations--have a tinge of sorrow that I fear is always going to be there. Then there are the ambushes. In a grief support group that my mom and I attended, that's how they referred to the moments of sadness that you don't see coming. Passing a guy at the gym who had Josh's eyes...the ice breaker question at my mom's group, "do you have a brother?"...or typing an email to my family and seeing his name pop up in the box as a suggestion. Those kinds of moments take my breath away and make my heart ache in a way that I didn't used to know was possible.

But thankfully I don't have to do this alone. I have to be reminded of it every single day, but once I stop and hand my sorrow and my fears over to God, He sees me through it and pulls me out of my dark place. He reminds me that this life is only temporary...and someday I'll be with Him and my entire family for eternity. So until then, I'm going to seek joy in the life I've been given...and keep putting one foot in front of the other. That's what Josh would want.